DearDiary.2003-02-01
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surkumdev1 joined the room xanthusinc: what you up to? surkumdev1: yell o xanthusinc: are you getting QET? quantum event time model? surkumdev1: huh? xanthusinc: you agree there is no limit to how fast you can get their and newtonian rules apply to all of your travels no matter how fast you go? surkumdev1: no xanthusinc: QET predicts that and relativity emerges naturally more or less. surkumdev1: i believe that any digital physics puts a limitation on that xanthusinc: prove it wrong. one single example where it fails. it is absolutely true. xanthusinc: for the traveler alone missavity joined the room xanthusinc: we must model the traveler missavity: and the traveler is who exactly? xanthusinc: hi miss, qurestions? problems? desires? xanthusinc: questions? missavity: who is the traveler? xanthusinc: space traveler, to andromada and back missavity: and why must we model him or her? xanthusinc: takes him twenty years, but when he gets back 220 years have passed here. xanthusinc: senior moment? andromada is 100 light years away? missavity: does that answer my question about why we must model him? xanthusinc: we are modeling the universe xanthusinc: the actors in our model are travelers missavity: oh, I get it, you aren't going to answer that xanthusinc: i am trying xanthusinc: we are physicists, it is our nature to model the universe missavity: ok, got you there xanthusinc: lol missavity: who is the traveler missavity: where is his record of travel missavity: what did he learn? missavity: where is he now? xanthusinc: [[StarPilot]] and me. earth, any object. all objects. missavity: you have been to Andromeda? xanthusinc: newtonian rules apply for the traveller, but according to einstein, all other clocks are screwy. xanthusinc: not yet xanthusinc: what are the [[BigQuestions]] for you? missavity: my big questions? missavity: for my life? xanthusinc: yes xanthusinc: yours, your family, nation, world? missavity: right this minute, can I find my soulmate in a person of another race... if my race consciousness forms so much of my mission for this lifetime missavity: forgive me, not soulmate, twin flame xanthusinc: i think as long as we preserve our disersity it is fine to enjoy it xanthusinc: diversity missavity: that wasn't the question I asked missavity: but thanks xanthusinc: that is colective intelligence cool. xanthusinc: we are many steames on many frequencies, we can maintain conflicting streams only if we can prevent them from crossing. missavity: in laymens terms Doc xanthusinc: you can be more than one thing, but its crazy xanthusinc: if you don't mind being a little scitzo, go for it ncslutpup joined the room xanthusinc: hi pup, questions?, problems? dreams? missavity: LOL missavity: free advice surkumdev1: hello miss ncslutpup: not me, i am perfect ncslutpup: xanthusinc: cool missavity: hello dev1 surkumdev1: hello nclutpup surkumdev1: so, jim, you know these people? xanthusinc: no missavity: I think that is slut pup surkumdev1: ok missavity: come pup, ask a question ncslutpup: hhmmm xanthusinc: hope you are being nice... ncslutpup: i will missavity: I asked about my twin flame being a person of another race ncslutpup: what about the ability of the collective mind to anticipate events missavity: when my race consciousness forms so much of my identity missavity: good question ncslutpup: why cant people collectively "see" even a little bit into the probable future xanthusinc: nostrodemous told me it can xanthusinc: lol missavity: he told you? ncslutpup: but it doesnnt seem to work very well ncslutpup: why doesnt everyone get off the plane that is going to crash ncslutpup: and other such examples xanthusinc: we can see the possible futures, which one you predict depends on you optimism, the collective only provides the alternaives usually xanthusinc: it must act through someone like budha, jesus, ghandi, gabran missavity: why is that? xanthusinc: it acts through all of us missavity: you just said it must act through a transcended master missavity: which one is it? xanthusinc: the problem is largly that it operately on a lower frequency or longer time scale, it speakes sooo slowly to us that we are too impatient to listen. missavity: it being? xanthusinc: collective intelligence xanthusinc: we are cells that are us and in turn are cells of the collective missavity: right, tiny drops in the infinite sea of God, collective intelligence, the universe, Love... whatever you choose to call it ncslutpup left the room xanthusinc: no must, only if you are lazy you must, you must keep the disiplin xanthusinc: for me to keep it, requires 15 minutes 3 times a day meditation. surkumdev1: missvity, what is twin flame? xanthusinc: i hardly do it anymore.... I am 52 xanthusinc: old hippy missavity: the soul that was created with you at the begining of time surkumdev1: oh surkumdev1: how old are you? missavity: it is the yin to your yang xanthusinc: i only know of the spirit born in my life. missavity: a soulmate is someone that has come into your life to teach you a lesson xanthusinc: 52 missavity: your twin flame is your other half surkumdev1: oh missavity: vibrating at the same frequency as you are surkumdev1: you seem too logical for a woman surkumdev1: i m surprised xanthusinc: i just met someone close to that in a sence, dacid seigle shares many of my visions. missavity: too logical? surkumdev1: yes, you can think surkumdev1: a defining character that most women do not have missavity: is that a suggestion that I'm not a woman, or that women are illogical? xanthusinc: fellowship is good, ecessary i think xanthusinc: necessary surkumdev1: personally, i believe that not woman can think logically surkumdev1: some do, an exceptional job at it surkumdev1: though missavity: let me guess, you are single surkumdev1: yes surkumdev1: but i am not looking though missavity: logical and intuitive... missavity: masculine and feminine missavity: yin and yang surkumdev1: oh missavity: damn, I have it all surkumdev1: oh that's good missavity: Jim, have you had a NDE? xanthusinc: men and woman tend to think differently, the way men think, deductive, kum call logical, he is forgeting that real problem are non linier and don't succumb to deduction, and that inductive solutions are also logical by nature. xanthusinc: NDE? missavity: Near Death Experience? xanthusinc: you bet surkumdev1: me, not really, i think xanthusinc: could get heart down to 6 beats a munite missavity: has it stopped? surkumdev1: i hope. Well, there is a story, my dad used to tell me xanthusinc: once i stopped it. missavity: have you seen the light? xanthusinc: yes surkumdev1: i haven;t seen the light surkumdev1: have you? surkumdev1: missavity? xanthusinc: my meditations were 15 minutes to the second. took me two hours to get ailive. missavity: nope, but I did have an experience where I felt myself as the entire universe surkumdev1: what do u mean>? xanthusinc: normally 15 minutes xanthusinc: when i stopped my heart, it took two hours for me to revive myself. surkumdev1:http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user<code>mdsuresh&nextdate</code>11%2f23%2f2002+2%3a1%3a9.0&direction=n surkumdev1: read down on Wednesay Nov 13, 2002 xanthusinc: no idea how long the heart was stopped but i believe it was over a munute. surkumdev1: oh, jim, sorry to hear that xanthusinc: but i felt fine, great actually after. surkumdev1: oh missavity: there is no such thing as death missavity: so no need to feel sorry missavity: pain and death are human illusions missavity: but we aren't really human, we are tiny drops in the infinite sea of collective intelligence surkumdev1: oh missavity: ok, well I must take my leave missavity: peace and many blessings surkumdev1: bye missavity left the room xanthusinc: lol, you speack against that which logically can exist ignoring what logically might exist i think, kum. God is Creative forse in universe, of subset of the logical systems that comprise the univers which are creative. xanthusinc: can't surkumdev1: oh xanthusinc: as far as i can say.. God <code></code> Creator surkumdev1: i dunno surkumdev1: i am goin to watch TV xanthusinc: organization emerges on every level, including the top, every top xanthusinc: fried your brain? surkumdev1: yes, I was learning GR today, having conversations about god, your theory, my own theory surkumdev1: and wad tryin to solve the problem of energy and a crumbling a piece of paper surkumdev1: so, my brain is fried xanthusinc: lol surkumdev1: watching weakest link on howard stern xanthusinc: QET theory, i have a model, a paridyme, it is not wrong, a theory of mine is [[BinaryHarmonicCosmology]]. xanthusinc: QET is not a theory xanthusinc: later, sorry, i can be hard to shut up at times, lol. surkumdev1: my brain is off now xanthusinc: QET is a description of observation. xanthusinc: you have other cool ideas in the chat, i just don'y think denying any reasonable definition of God is unreasonable. xanthusinc: it's ok, it's not bad, but undecidable ultimately. surkumdev1: oh venusmellonie joined the room venusmellonie: Anybody there? xanthusinc: i'll have to comment there I guess surkumdev1: ok venusmellonie: OK. you gys are just so silent. xanthusinc: hi venus, question, problems, dreams? venusmellonie: Nothing in particular. just a little bit lonely. xanthusinc: we just finished venusmellonie: Finished what? xanthusinc: lol, a woman cab't be lonely on the internet, can she? xanthusinc: can't venusmellonie: Well. I am. I just logged on. venusmellonie: A woman can be lonely in a lot of ways. xanthusinc: collective intelligence, information physics, God venusmellonie: Not just physically or mentally but intelectually too. venusmellonie: I am lonely intellectually. xanthusinc: i know, been married forever, twice venusmellonie: It is har to look for someone that one can talk to sensibly xanthusinc: we are all ultimately alone in our thoughts, but this is a place for you to be, this room i mean xanthusinc: cause we do have a lot of common thoughts xanthusinc: one some are unique. xanthusinc: only xanthusinc: weel, i am an information physicist, what is sencible to you and me are different in some ways, and the same in others. venusmellonie: I do hope so. surkumdev1: hello venus venusmellonie: It would be boring if two people agree on everything. venusmellonie: Hi. surkumdev1: i once wrote a poem of a girl i named venus xanthusinc: when i was 16 i thought communication with other humans was impossible, like i was from mars or something. venusmellonie: It sometimes is like that. Communication sometimes sucks especially if the person you are talking to is on another wavelength xanthusinc: i know, lol venusmellonie: Venus is a largely well known and used name. Is she beautiful? xanthusinc: the most beutiful surkumdev1: well, i never knew her name. she was beautiful surkumdev1: so, being a little bit of poet, i wrote a poem about venus surkumdev1: it's just foolish romance xanthusinc: she is the first stop on the way to the son and a beatiful spirit. xanthusinc: sun venusmellonie: Okay. Since venus means the godess of beauty. venusmellonie: Romance is never foolish unless it gets out of hand xanthusinc: i believe in her. xanthusinc: well, i believe all gods are real spirits. venusmellonie: Aside from writting poems, do you like declaiming? venusmellonie: Are you a wide reader? xanthusinc: dont know declaiming venusmellonie: I simply love books. Of all kinds venusmellonie: It is like in a theater. surkumdev1: i read mostly techincal stuff xanthusinc: i love books too, but dont read enough lately. surkumdev1: and as far as reading novels, i like watching movies venusmellonie: What kind of books do you usually read? surkumdev1: instead of them venusmellonie: What kind of thechnical stuff do you read? surkumdev1: usually textbooks on physics surkumdev1: , mathematics, etc venusmellonie: you really are into Physics== xanthusinc: now im reading gabran and physics stuff surkumdev1: i want to be a good physicist someday venusmellonie: You must be really good at science and all thise analytical stuff. surkumdev1: i hope venusmellonie: I had a hard time on those subjects when i was in college. I liked the literary stuff and the business stuff. surkumdev1: but women do bring the poet and the artist in me xanthusinc: non fiction mostly but love gabran, Herman Hesse, heinlan, .... surkumdev1: but it's just silly stuff venusmellonie: How old are you? surkumdev1: 20 xanthusinc: not to me xanthusinc: what are your BIG questions, yourself, family, nation, world? xanthusinc: 52 venusmellonie: Those are not silly stuff. Any book is not silly stuff. You learn from them. Fiction or non-fiction. venusmellonie: About myself, I have no question. It is just about men in gemeral. Why do they always have roving eyes. surkumdev1: no, i mean, my infatuations with women are sillt surkumdev1: silly* surkumdev1: because women are pretty and delicate venusmellonie: They only look delicate but they can be as tough as men. surkumdev1: yes, but in a loving way xanthusinc: because it is in their advantage evolutionary advantage to make as many babies as they can surkumdev1: venusmellonie: What does babies have to do with being tough? surkumdev1: women are expressive venusmellonie: That I can agree with. xanthusinc: rational people can appease those fanticies without actually acting on them, e.g. vicariously. xanthusinc: i love woman, all woman surkumdev1: there is nothing better than fallin in love with a women and cuddling her xanthusinc: but i never get any.....lol venusmellonie: I already have a little girl. it is not really an advantage but it does appease my motherly cravings. xanthusinc: had 5 venusmellonie: I know I had one too early but It doesn't change things. i love her. surkumdev1: yeah venusmellonie: how old is your eldest? xanthusinc: woman just HAVE to do that from time to time (babies) venusmellonie: I am only 22. xanthusinc: i love chirldren too fortunately surkumdev1: i am a foolish romantic surkumdev1: i am 20 venusmellonie: I know. When the time is right (this time) and with the right guy. I still want to have two more. surkumdev1: i believe that i should say 'i love you' to a girl, only if i want to marry her xanthusinc: 30Amy in aug. venusmellonie: Romantics aren't foolish. They are those that should be followed by some. venusmellonie: That is true. love is an easy word to say but hard to stand up to. xanthusinc: pashion and reason are the sails and the rudder of the seafaring soul, without either he can but just drift aimlessly. -Gabran. surkumdev1: my prof calls me so surkumdev1: usually, that's how i do physics/math xanthusinc: how? venusmellonie: Some guys take love too lightly. But some gals too. I was once one of them. It was my fault even if at that time I was blaming my parents for breaking up. surkumdev1: oh venusmellonie: Yeah. Oh. But past is past. surkumdev1: i am foolish romantic because i am "not practical" xanthusinc: girls just wanna have fun surkumdev1: i fancy over stuff surkumdev1: like physics surkumdev1: math xanthusinc: we all go through that, except kum, he is a strieght arrow. venusmellonie: You should try being practical but not on a lot of things. Being too practical isn't fun. surkumdev1: usually, my prof means the stuff i do surkumdev1: eventually, i do produce results surkumdev1: but i appoarch problems in a foolish romantic way venusmellonie: Such as? venusmellonie: Sometimes that is better than beating your brains out. xanthusinc: i don't think you really what to know venus, or do you like physics? venusmellonie: I like it at some level but not too much. i like literary stuff more. surkumdev1: you see, i told my prof, that when i become a professor, i will make exams that scale to each individaul student surkumdev1: and measure him based on progress xanthusinc: a lot of work... too much work. surkumdev1: my prof thinks that is foolish romance surkumdev1: its really unpractical if you are prof because a prof should be doing research xanthusinc: i had one professor who actually read every line of everones program assignments, that was more work then any other would do. and it was a lot. surkumdev1: oh surkumdev1: u know what i mean? venus? venusmellonie: I guess you both are deep into Physics. I am the odd one out. surkumdev1: no, xanthusinc: it was cool that he saw every cool thing you did and appreciated it. surkumdev1: let's talk surkumdev1: what do u want to talk about? surkumdev1: jim, u talking to me? venusmellonie: Anything. Do you two know eachother? xanthusinc: talking to us all surkumdev1: oh, about ur prof surkumdev1: ok surkumdev1: yes, venus,i know jim thru the internet surkumdev1: we have a common philosophy venusmellonie: Okay. Is he into Physics too? surkumdev1: yes xanthusinc: but this is the collective intelligence group surkumdev1: well, venus, my brain is closed for physics now surkumdev1: but i am a philosopher from time to time venusmellonie: How come jim isn't shareing his thoughts? xanthusinc: here we seek to accoplesh something together we could not do alone using all of our thoughts in any common area surkumdev1: we had been talking for a while now xanthusinc: i am jim venusmellonie: Ok. What appears on you screen is my real name so you won't have any trouble. xanthusinc: i dont want to kill jimscarver (me) in the office cause there is stuff in the log I want to keep. long name courtesy of my dad. surkumdev1: u chinese? venusmellonie: Sometimes names are just a twisted sence of humor of our parents. surkumdev1: oh surkumdev1: u asian? venusmellonie: Yes. I am a filipina. surkumdev1: oh surkumdev1: the girl venus, i said was also asian venusmellonie: Where did you meet her? surkumdev1: college surkumdev1: nj venusmellonie: How did you guess that I was asian? surkumdev1: i dunno, u reminded me of her surkumdev1: with ur name venusmellonie: Do you like animals? surkumdev1: cats venusmellonie: What else do you have? surkumdev1: but i am alergic to them venusmellonie: We have a lot in the Phil. xanthusinc: kum is asian, indian. surkumdev1: but i used to have a lot of them venusmellonie: I am allergic to them too because I an Asthmatic but that doesn't stop me and my dad. surkumdev1: i love kittens surkumdev1: they are so cute and pretty xanthusinc: sounds like american though, you have mics? venusmellonie: We have a lot of dogs, birds, reptiles, monkeys but no cats. They eat dad's birds. venusmellonie: What is mics? surkumdev1: jim u like animals? surkumdev1: oh surkumdev1: i am not into other animals except dogs venusmellonie: What kind of dog do you have? surkumdev1: i dont. i pet my neighbors xanthusinc: we have 3 cats 7 birds no problem. xanthusinc: dog, hamsters xanthusinc: 5 rabbits xanthusinc: fish surkumdev1: right now, i have no animals xanthusinc: http://dootsmon.com venusmellonie: That is good enough. Wow. You have a lot too. My dad uis a breeder of birds so we literally have a lot. xanthusinc: only onee bird is free xanthusinc: cats dog and rabbits are free venusmellonie: We also have 2 siberian huskies, 1 dutchand and 1 shepherd. surkumdev1: i do not like to live with a lot of animals surkumdev1: too many responsibilities xanthusinc: wow, you are as bad as us surkumdev1: i like to live a simple and responsibility free life venusmellonie: Well I love no correction, I adore animals. venusmellonie: But yes I only get to pet those animals when I am with my dad. It is hard to take care of them. xanthusinc: you gotta live life with gusto, or why bother? xanthusinc: lol venusmellonie: That is true. i am learning to do that now. xanthusinc: i'll drink to that==== brb surkumdev1: so, venus, u like a simple life? venusmellonie: I was swamped with responsibility at an early age because both my parents are always out of town so i had to rear my brother and my sister. I am 7 year older than they are. surkumdev1: oh surkumdev1: i hate responsibility venusmellonie: I like to live a simple life. I love the country. i would rather stay there than in the hustle and bustle of the city. venusmellonie: One does tend to hate responsibility until it virtually knocks on your door. surkumdev1: i guess surkumdev1: i take my responsibilities too seriously surkumdev1: and so, i always try to avoid them surkumdev1: whenever possible venusmellonie: Our talk was definitely a breath of fresh air but i have to go now. I still have work tom. surkumdev1: ok bye venusmellonie: Hope I could chat with you again tom night. Will look forward to it. xanthusinc: you are ul;timately responsible only for yourself, but sharing responsibility is what we do because we love life and abudance which we sustain together. venusmellonie left the room surkumdev1: yeah surkumdev1: and bye surkumdev1: so, u have a lot of pets jim xanthusinc: nice to meet you, may not be here tomorrow but may be, come anytime venusmellonie: venusmellonie: Bye. Nite. xanthusinc: happy dreams xanthusinc: surkumdev1: jim, should u be sleeping? xanthusinc: yikes surkumdev1: wow, you are like a girl magnet xanthusinc: lost track of time surkumdev1: jim, shouldnt you be sleeping? xanthusinc: charlotte takes care of them mostly surkumdev1: charlotte? xanthusinc: my wife surkumdev1: ok xanthusinc: venus is nice surkumdev1: yes xanthusinc: every human being is worthwile and valuable and we can capitalize on human fulfillment. xanthusinc: we should. xanthusinc: every human being xanthusinc: goodnight kum surkumdev1: nite ---- personal info (real names of others) comments removed. too bad the emotion symbols (smiles) were lost too. the log from friday, earlier today, and times i was not there are hopefully in the office and will get to yesterdays diary on monday. wonder if anything cool happened when i wasn't there.... and another saga, boy it's late.... ---- non1sum1qualis1eram:hi non1sum1qualis1eram: hi jimmy scarver surkumdev1: hello xanthusinc: hi surkumdev1: u up? xanthusinc: this is jimy, who goes there? non1sum1qualis1eram: not much non1sum1qualis1eram: im lethus surkumdev1: lethus? xanthusinc: should i remember? senior moment? non1sum1qualis1eram: yes the cosmic entity known only to mortals as lethus non1sum1qualis1eram: im just lethus in a mortal form surkumdev1: ok xanthusinc: the grim reaper? i aint ready... xanthusinc: having WAY too much fun. non1sum1qualis1eram: bad lag xanthusinc: and the power of Heavin is behind me non1sum1qualis1eram: i see non1sum1qualis1eram: if that works for you non1sum1qualis1eram: that is wonderful xanthusinc: are you the reaper? surkumdev1: did i tell u i am a grim greaper non1sum1qualis1eram: nah im lethus surkumdev1: people haved died surkumdev1: here's something i will tell u xanthusinc: i am trying to recognise lethus, was a guess. surkumdev1: this is just interpretation surkumdev1: u see, my driving instructor was old ritired man surkumdev1: he lived downstairs from my appartment surkumdev1: he taught me driving xanthusinc: i have sat amoung the imortals, perhaps we have met. surkumdev1: and we became close and he died surkumdev1: his last conversation was with me. surkumdev1: all my roomates have dropped out of college surkumdev1: including myself non1sum1qualis1eram: i see surkumdev1: not only that, i knew this guy in new brunswick surkumdev1: he was old, he didnt have a family surkumdev1: he always wanted to play the guitar xanthusinc: what about his last conversation with you? surkumdev1: he never had any money to buy his own surkumdev1: i gave him my guitar surkumdev1: and he disappeared later completely surkumdev1: this guy was living there for like years surkumdev1: later on, someond told me he had an heart attach surkumdev1: i bring death surkumdev1: xanthusinc: so you are the reaper, kum, may your shadow mever cross my door, lol. surkumdev1: but death, where people die, happily knowing their spirits are put to rest xanthusinc: kim is not a believer in spirit. xanthusinc: kum surkumdev1: i dont surkumdev1: this is just my interpretation xanthusinc: he thinks that if he can't write the equation it doesn'y exist surkumdev1: huh? xanthusinc: he doesn't know that the equatins are beyond the comprehention of our small minds. surkumdev1: not only that, this is something funny. xanthusinc: equations for meme based existance of spirit. surkumdev1: u see, there was this indian actor in a dance video. he was old . So, i thought shouldnt he be dead? The next week, he actually died surkumdev1: but this is interpretation xanthusinc: luthis, questions? problems? dreams? surkumdev1: let me also tell you something, about death of institutions i have brought out, when i leave. non1sum1qualis1eram: hrmm surkumdev1: i went to 2 schools. surkumdev1: u see, when i left my highschool in india in 11 grade, my principal died xanthusinc: you seem to be a destructive spirit kum, yet no reasonable being would choose death over life, hate over love, or destruction over Creation. surkumdev1: well, he was old xanthusinc: but did he learn the guitar? surkumdev1: most of these people, who died, because of me are actually very nice people surkumdev1: well, the guy, who i gave the guitar, he knew how to play, but never had to money to play it surkumdev1: u see, back in my high school in india, my principal was held undisputed position was replaced when i left surkumdev1: when i came to the US, and left my WWPHS high school's system, it went into turmoil because of teacher's pay xanthusinc: ok. how about a little affimative action, pray for long life of every person and place you go. surkumdev1: so, u see, i am death surkumdev1: jim, i am not kidding about any of these facts surkumdev1: it's not that they die because of me surkumdev1: it's just that usually, i am there when people die feeling happy surkumdev1: so, non1sum1qualis1er, why are u the grim reaper? non1sum1qualis1eram: im not non1sum1qualis1eram: im a part of lethus silly xanthusinc: you are the spirit that you alow to control you and those that control you vike viruses. surkumdev1: what is lethus? xanthusinc: like a virus xanthusinc: please tell lethus non1sum1qualis1eram: im just hear to experience the joys of marjuana inthats a thats a lie non1sum1qualis1eram: bah non1sum1qualis1eram: lag non1sum1qualis1eram: im sorry surkumdev1: ok xanthusinc: i to am stoned non1sum1qualis1eram: im here to experience the joys of marjuana through the enbodiment of human form ALL IN (devinchillpill) joined the room xanthusinc: was surkumdev1: u see, not only do i bring death to people, i can navigate place without maps surkumdev1: by taking random paths surkumdev1: i am not kidding non1sum1qualis1eram: im not stoned im clean cuz im grounded non1sum1qualis1eram: and it really sucks surkumdev1: i do this experiment all the time surkumdev1: i used to get lost and try to find my way back non1sum1qualis1eram: i hate when im driving and get lost surkumdev1: and usually i do find my way back xanthusinc: it i am (was mabe) very good without a map. surkumdev1: i love it xanthusinc: i am never lost surkumdev1: it's solving a puzzle non1sum1qualis1eram: i live in chicago so you always eventually find your way back to a road that you know will lead you home non1sum1qualis1eram: but its still anoying surkumdev1: oh surkumdev1: usually, this path finding thing helps in research non1sum1qualis1eram: my abilty to have a funny convo is shot tonight xanthusinc: i am never physicially lost, emotionally and mentally i get lost regularly non1sum1qualis1eram: how very tragic non1sum1qualis1eram: hehe surkumdev1: oh non1sum1qualis1eram: im gunna go to bed non1sum1qualis1eram: cuz this is a realy boring evening surkumdev1: i dunno. it's like i have some sort of esp. non1sum1qualis1eram: night night=/ xanthusinc: sorry surkumdev1: nite surkumdev1: sorry non1sum1qualis1eram: its possible to be closer to like a esp. stat of mind since concessness is useally expanded when you are high non1sum1qualis1eram: to bad your short term memery and often the abilty to relate is shatterd surkumdev1: oh surkumdev1: i am not usually not high non1sum1qualis1eram: depends i guess on the drug dontcha think non1sum1qualis1eram: night night non1sum1qualis1eram: i see surkumdev1: because i do not do drugs non1sum1qualis1eram: thats do bad non1sum1qualis1eram: you should try pot and stick to it most other drugs arnt that great fer ya anyhow non1sum1qualis1eram left the room xanthusinc: no, i dont do drugs most of the time surkumdev1: i do not like to have a cloudy mind surkumdev1: i like to feel reality and know that i am feeling reality surkumdev1: oh xanthusinc: most every day i smoke a little i guess, entertainment for the tran ride etc., a substitute for the disipline surkumdev1: anyways, jim, i would like to someday test to see if i have esp surkumdev1: oh surkumdev1: i think that would be cool. xanthusinc: all tests i have set up failed, seems untestable. surkumdev1: well, there are some tests xanthusinc: almost seems like testing is taboo at times. surkumdev1: i would only believe that i have esp. if it can be scienfically proven xanthusinc: i could demonstrate it with one friend, before many people, but not in a controled experiment. surkumdev1: i need a controlled experiment xanthusinc: i was just like you untill i lived with witches surkumdev1: i want to see if i really spell death surkumdev1: hello xanthusinc: and lost my ability to distiguash reality, retreated back to science and have finally reconsiled science and spirit. surkumdev1: redskin, people i know, or have come to know intimately have died surkumdev1: i am talkin about strangers surkumdev1: not family surkumdev1: all my roomates were dropouts xanthusinc: thats not going to win you any popularity contests kum. surkumdev1: oh xanthusinc: lol surkumdev1: it's usually like when i leave, things go in ruin surkumdev1: like both of my highschools i went to and the Rutgers EE program surkumdev1: do u know that ABET will not renew rutgers EE license if they do not change thier circulum surkumdev1: no kidding xanthusinc: give it no power xanthusinc: forget about it. surkumdev1: this started happening right before i left xanthusinc: empower only creation. surkumdev1: jim, i dunno, something about me and death and justice xanthusinc: curriculum changes are often required surkumdev1: yes xanthusinc: about every few years to keep accredidation xanthusinc: at NJIT xanthusinc: good night surkumdev1: nite surkumdev1: i hope that there is no correlation between me and death surkumdev1: " surkumdev1: nite xanthusinc: indeed